Thank God It's Not a Leap Year

I find Feb. to be a hard month for me. In highschool, I referred to it as "the Bad Month"; a month where anything that could go wrong would. I still feel that sense of dread around the end of Jan. Part of it stems from the fact that growing up in the Midwest, Feb. is a very grey, morose, dreary month. It's usually a little to warm to snow, but not sunny enough to shine. The world is grey and everyone is waiting for spring and flowers and life to come.
In California, Feb. is different. Right now it's in the 70s, sunny, and like June in OH. That doesn't mean my feelings for this month have changed thought. It's effect on my is indifferent. The dread of events and feelings hold tight through all 28/29 days.
In highschool, I remember during this one month I got tendonitis, broke up with my boyfriend, and almost got a ticket. After college, during Feb. my ex-bf had his new gf and decided that we couldn't be friends anymore. Last year was by far the worst events for Feb., but I'm too weak and still heartbroken to get into them.
The fact that Valentine's Day is during this month is some sort of cruel, twisted, cosmic joke really. More people are alone, or in a bad relationship, than are in a healthy, stable, committed union. It's one day out of the year that you want someone to care about you, and if you don't have anyone like that then the reality that you may never sinks in deeper. It's stupid, and everyone knows it. If you love someone, one day shouldn't matter. You shouldn't have to give them flowers or candy or go to dinner just because Hallmark demands it. If you are not loved, the emptiness of watching couples, old and young, of looking down at your own hand not intertwined with anyone else's...can be more than you can handle. Maybe this is why this holiday is in Feb.; because it's part of the bad month.
Of course I've had boyfriends for Valentine's Day, but never liked the holiday even then. It all wraps up into this month that makes me very scared. I try to race through the month with friends and family member's birthdays...and there are a lot of them. My mom, best friend's, and most of my boyfriend's birthdays have all been in Feb. Should I be taking this as a sign? And if so, what is it trying to tell me? I have no clue, but very much like the groundhog...I just wanna crawl back into my hole and wait for spring.